Tamar Braxton has spoken out for the first time since her suicide attempt. The R&B singer and reality TV star took to Instagram to shed light on her experience, healing journey, and also on her ongoing battle with WE TV.
“First and foremost, Thank you. Thank you to each and every individual who has prayed for me, thought of me, sent me their love, and has showered me with their support. In this present moment, it is my only responsibility to be real with myself and to be real with the ones who truly love me and care for my healing. I have without fail, shared with you my brightest days, and I know that sharing with you what has been my darkest will be the light for any man or woman who is feeling the same defeat I felt just only a week ago,” Braxton wrote in a long letter where the “Love and War” singer thanked her fans.
“Every one of us has a desire, whether small or big, to make it out of where we come from to an ideal future place that includes, freedom to be who we choose, security for our children and families, and fortune to share with the ones we love. We believe these things can co-exist with just being happy. I believed that, that as a black woman, as an artist, an influence, a personality I could shape my world, and with whom I believed to be my partners, they could help me share my world.”
As we previously reported, Braxton had been going through an emotional contract dispute with We TV. The singer had been attempting to get out of her contract, as she believes that she has been treated unfairly for years. In her Instagram post, she referenced her battle with the television network.
“Mental illness is real. We have to normalize acknowledging it and stop associating it with shame and humiliation. The pain that I have experienced over the past 11 years has slowly ate away at my spirit and my mental illness, including those of us who’s mental illness, was only a result of the toxic, systemic bondage that dwells television. It was only God’s grace and his mercy on my attempt to end my pain and my life that I am here to utilize my voice,” Braxton continued.
“It is only your prayers that have pushed me to rise above my own personal demise, pushed me to not only continue my fight for the freedom of my own thoughts, mind and should but to also use my voice and experience to be an ally for every black and brown person who has suffered from the continued exploitation of reality television. Reality TV personalities have no union, no coat of protection, no formal representation that protests our labor, our rights, or our voices. They promise us an opportunity but produce exploitation which has only developed a poor portrayal of black people in show business.”
“I am learning to grow through my pain instead of looking for an escape. I’m on an irreversible path too healing. I am taking my time. It is of the utmost importance that I find my happy and my health, through professional treatment, for the sake of my whole heart, Logan, who I forgot in my moment of distress and desperation. And giving this journey my undivided attention. My rise will not be in vain,” Braxton said.
“I will make it my mission to establish the ownership of our businesses, promote growth and evolution, of our stories, and give us 100% equity in our freedom. My love for my support system and everyone who chose to love me when I no longer loved myself, is infinite and I am forever grateful. I pray you will stand with me and be courageous enough to share your own truth.”
Earlier in July, The “All the Way Home” singer was rushed to a Los Angeles hospital after she was found unresponsive by her boyfriend David Adefeso. She was staying at the Ritz Carlton Residences in Downtown Los Angeles, near LA Live, according to sources. Adefeso found Braxton “unresponsive” and dialed 911 to report that the singer and reality tv star had been drinking and had taken an unknown amount of prescription pills. According to sources, he believed Braxton attempted suicide.
On Tuesday (July 26), WE TV announced via Twitter and Instagram that Tamar Braxton’s forthcoming reality show, Tamar Braxton: Get Ya Life! will be postponed. “Tamar Braxton has been an incredibly important member of the WE tv family for more than a decade, and our first concern is for her recovery and well-being. Given the current situation, we are postponing the premiere of Tamar Braxton: Get Ya Life! until September 10,” the announcement read.
“This series was conceived by Tamar and is a real portrait of a dynamic woman juggling the demands of being a single mother, a new relationship and her career. We know, when the time is right, Tamar’s fans will relate to seeing this honest portrait of her life, but- at this moment- we are joining with her fans and sending strength and healing in the hope that she is getting the support and help she needs at this difficult time.”