During a recent interview with Michael Eric Dyson on his One Question One Mike Facebook Watch show, Big Sean got candid about his struggles with mental health.
The rapper began by saying, “It’s funny how you can have a way with words. And you can be poetic, or you can be lyrical and still not always get across how you feel all the way. ‘Cause sometimes, it takes more than a song, sometimes it takes more than an album, sometimes it takes you really spending time with yourself.”
He went on to say, “And that’s one of the things I was neglecting, because coming from Detroit, it’s like that mentality where you gotta stay hot, you gotta stay on they necks. People don’t get an opportunity where we from. So, it’s like, that was my mentality…was taking care of everybody else. And trying not to look soft, you know? Or look like a b—-. You know how people tell you…those are the stigmas that’s been placed on us growing up.”
“You know, if you’re a man and you’re not working hard, it’s like, ‘Aw, you getting soft.’ So that was always in the back of my head. So, I’m working, exhausting myself for years and years, and I couldn’t get through the day without feeling terrible. I was for sure contemplating suicide a lot of times. And you know, having guns in my hands and really just feeling it for real.”
Big Sean states that the key to him getting better was determining why he was unhappy in the first place. He said, “Not even trying to be dramatic, but definitely was just…even planning it out to the point where like, ‘Hey, if I do kill myself, at least my family will get this amount of money.’ I done did this already. All these things, right? So, because I just was stressed out and not happy. And I realized that, Ok, I need to stop everything I’m doing and figure this out, or I’ma self-destruct.”
The full interview airs today (March 3). Watch a clip here.