Ray J Says He Feels Suicidal, Rants About ‘Dirty Money’

Ray J took to his Instagram to share a lengthy message in which he stated that he is "suicidal" after an incident at GloRilla's after-party over the weekend's BET Awards.

According to gossip website TMZ, after the BET Awards ended Sunday (June 30) night, the television personality got into an altercation at GloRilla's after-party with a Zeus Network executive named Lemmy Pepper. Ray J and Lemmy Pepper were yelling about fighting each other as bodyguards desperately tried to keep things peaceful. At one point, Ray J allegedly threw a punch but did not hit anyone, grabbed a backpack out of his vehicle, and charged back into the crowd. It is unclear what was in his bag, but his team convinced him to get back in the car, and they drove off.

In a since-expired Instagram Story, the 43-year-old R&B singer reposted a photo of himself from Sunday's BET Awards with a lengthy explanation. He stated that he is at his breaking point and "money is evil and people are bad and I can't take it anymore!"

He alleged that someone paid him off for something, but did not share any additional details as to who or what the alleged payment was for.

"The s--- that happened tonight to me at the awards today was hurtful," he said. Detailing that he was working backstage at the awards show, BET wouldn't let him back in after taking a break. "I don't know who they don't want me to see," Ray J alleged.

Adding that he is leaving the country, he continued, "The s--- that. Is happening is mind blowing - it's making me suicidal and uncomfortable with the perception of reality! - THEY PAID ME TO SHUT UP AND I DID! - I FEEL BAD AND I HATE MYSELF FOR IT! I DONT WANT ANYMORE OF YOUR DIRTY MONEY!!"

The father of two then stated that when he dies, "I promise you I will be free of it all and the world can move on with what is real for me no matter the consequences I have to face on the other side!!" Alarming fans further, Ray J directed a message to his sister, Brandy. "I'm sorry to myself and I'm sister - sorry Bran, I will make it right, I won't let them get away with it!" He added, "I TOLD THE PEOPLE CLOSE TO ME -THAT! FELT LIKE SOMETHING IS ABOUT TO HAppen F---. IT I SAID IT."